My Boys and my Angel: July 2009

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Kenny crowd...tallest building in the world (Vegas)

I was so nervous in this picture, but I Love it cuz it shows so much emotin of how I felt that day.. Nervous and so happy!

Friday, July 10, 2009

Lots of Love

Tagen 3, Graclyn about a year and a half. They were so little! Now 5 and 3 (almost 4)

Me and Alice at my moms on Tagen's 3rd birthday! I Like this pic cuz me and Al look hot, and she means so much to me! We grew up together, and She is the stength in our family. She's the communicator, and the one everyone Loves... my favorite memory is when we walked to mables from her house. It was miles! and When the lights went out at Christmas

My Handsome Bear-

Monday, July 6, 2009

Tagen's little olympics

Tulsa Zoo

Kyle's field trip was a disaster, and luckily as a kid he didn't notice. It rained the entire time! We walked around, ate lunch, and left after like 3 hours. He had fun

Tagen likes to dig in my car, and he found this jacket in my trunk, and had to wear it! Can you tell he has no fear?? He's standing on top of this horse! and Luckily it wasn't too hot outside!

mandi and mom

We always have so much fun in the kitchen. It's always chaotic, cuz we have a thousand things going on. The phone is always ringing, stirring can't be done faster. I like this pic cuz Mandi and mom look just alike. I have always liked how they look a like.

eating breakfast

These two Love to sit at this bar! I grew up eating here my whole life. It's so fun to sit here. Tagen and Logan are spoiled by mom when we come. She just keeps bringing them anything they want. Sometimes they may have two or three different drinks!lol. yep they do. Tagen has 3 cups in this pic

Aunt Mandi

Mandi, My sister is the best Aunt in the world!!! She never tells Tagen no, not ever! so he walks around saying "aunt mandi!" all day. It's so cute..she spoils him

My little Lou

There's my princess!

Logan and Tagen

These are the two crazy boys!! I've heard James ( Logan's dad, my brother in law) say "Togan" lol, These two keep you on your toes. They are so fun though

Javier- age 10

Javi, My first nephew. I had so much fun playing with him when he was little. His personality is so unique. He is growing up, andsometimes it seems Javi doesn't want to hug or talk on the phone anymore, but those are the times I grab him , hug him, and kiss him on the top of the head. He just smiles- just like in this pic.

My beautiful niece Lexi's feet..so cute

I Love my niece Alexis- She is one of my best friends. Lexi, or who I call Lou or Lu- whichever way I want to spell it is my pride and joy. She is beautiful, and so sweet. She takes care of Tagen with the patience of a big sister. I'm so proud of her for chasing Logan and Tagen around and loving every minute of it. One of my latest favorite stories of Lex is when we were at mom's for a get together, and of course the boy's were outside without shoes. feet dirty! They wanted to come in the house, you hear all the adults, "your feet are dirty", "wash your feet off before you come in." Then the adults go back to their conversations, ignoring two 4 yearolds with dirty feet. I look outside and see Lexi with a water hose washing their feet, and getting their shoes on so there feet wouldn't get dirty again. I was so appreciative for her that day. No one ever noticed. No one even asked her to do it. I noticed, and I wanted to just say "thank you Lex, for all you do that goes unnoticed". I gave her hug, and said thanks Lex! She just smiled and bounced along all happy. My sister has done a great job raising her. - I love this pic cuz her feet are all dirty! lol..but so cute

Yes..it's Dawsons Creek

I have so many memories with this show. I used to run through the house screaming when it would come on wednesday nights. It always made everyone laugh...then I bought all the DVD's..I was by myself without cable..I would watch these episodes over and over. I had six seasons to work with. I got my friend Jordan into them. we would watch them for hours at my house in the middle of the night..laughing, crying, and we would be so delirious. I tell everyone..if your having a bad day..tell me whats wrong, and I can find a dawsons creek episode to make you feel better...When I got in my wreck, after I was out of the ER, Kelly and Jordan came over and helped me get all cleaned up..I was bruised up pretty bad, and shook up. Jordan stayed with me all day watching dawsons creek.

Just a little about Kiley..

Kiley is my first born daughter that died at birth five years ago. Just like any mom can imagine, it is the most horrible feeling you will ever have inside. Other than the sad part of it, Kiley was definitely meant to happen, She is a blessing to me, and to my family. One of the things I always picture is her face, I can see it so clear, She looked just like me. I couldn't look at myself for 3 days after she died because I saw her. She was a beautiful baby. Her fingers were so long, and pretty. Tagen had huge hands and feet, but Kileys were so dainty, and pretty. An interesting thing that you all would like to know is when I think about Kiley, which is everyday, I think of her as a 5 year old blonde headed little girl. As the years have past, as she gets older, I picture her as the age she would be. I was telling my friend and boss Mark Hennen, who is a pastor about this. He said that you grow up in heaven. So Kiley being five years old is growing up in heaven, and he thought it was so neat that she ages in my mind because thats what she is doing in heaven. I never really thought about it like that before. I didn't know that when you die you stay the same or not. I know that God had to take her, and I will never understand, but thats Okay, I am at Peace. I think that the reason that I think about her growing up, and not as a little baby is the just a little gift from God to me letting see a glimpse of what she looks like...I am so Thankful for that.

My Boys and my Angel