My Boys and my Angel: January 2009

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Toby teaching Tagen how to putt-putt

This picture is special to me because moments like these is when these two can bond.

I caught Tagen one night sneaking a drink out of the pickle jar. It made me laugh because I used to do this when I was a kid with pickle juice and soy sauce! Isn't that funny!

I can't wait for tagen to learn to read....he loves books.

Yesterday was a fun day for us. We went to Incredible pizza. The boys must have been so tired that they passed out on the way there. we enjoyed the sweetness of them asleep to get ready for what was in store....running, playing, and more running. I don't think Tagenn ever stopped running. Toby and Kyle stuck together and tagen and I ran..non-stop..it was fun..enjoy the pics!

Yes..it's Dawsons Creek

I have so many memories with this show. I used to run through the house screaming when it would come on wednesday nights. It always made everyone laugh...then I bought all the DVD's..I was by myself without cable..I would watch these episodes over and over. I had six seasons to work with. I got my friend Jordan into them. we would watch them for hours at my house in the middle of the night..laughing, crying, and we would be so delirious. I tell everyone..if your having a bad day..tell me whats wrong, and I can find a dawsons creek episode to make you feel better...When I got in my wreck, after I was out of the ER, Kelly and Jordan came over and helped me get all cleaned up..I was bruised up pretty bad, and shook up. Jordan stayed with me all day watching dawsons creek.

Just a little about Kiley..

Kiley is my first born daughter that died at birth five years ago. Just like any mom can imagine, it is the most horrible feeling you will ever have inside. Other than the sad part of it, Kiley was definitely meant to happen, She is a blessing to me, and to my family. One of the things I always picture is her face, I can see it so clear, She looked just like me. I couldn't look at myself for 3 days after she died because I saw her. She was a beautiful baby. Her fingers were so long, and pretty. Tagen had huge hands and feet, but Kileys were so dainty, and pretty. An interesting thing that you all would like to know is when I think about Kiley, which is everyday, I think of her as a 5 year old blonde headed little girl. As the years have past, as she gets older, I picture her as the age she would be. I was telling my friend and boss Mark Hennen, who is a pastor about this. He said that you grow up in heaven. So Kiley being five years old is growing up in heaven, and he thought it was so neat that she ages in my mind because thats what she is doing in heaven. I never really thought about it like that before. I didn't know that when you die you stay the same or not. I know that God had to take her, and I will never understand, but thats Okay, I am at Peace. I think that the reason that I think about her growing up, and not as a little baby is the just a little gift from God to me letting see a glimpse of what she looks like...I am so Thankful for that.

My Boys and my Angel

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Toby teaching Tagen how to putt-putt

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Monday, January 5, 2009

Thursday, January 1, 2009

My Life..Enjoy

My most favorite part of the day..

Anyone who knows me..knows I Love this...

Yes..it's Dawsons Creek